Journal

Prepping For First Solo Show

So it's been quiet online for me for a bit, but after a successful launch with Manduka Yoga and a busy holiday season, I was grounded back to reality with my first solo show.

When I was approached by Covet Consign to create a 10-15 piece show to be displayed for roughly 6 weeks, I thought it would be a piece of cake. Let me tell you, I am human and I completely underestimated the task. Prepping 11 large pieces to be delivered at once definitely was a challenge, but what better way to bring in 2018?

I delivered the show last week, but needed some time to regroup my thoughts once I settled down from my frame making frenzy. Looking back, I've realized something fairly profound about my process, and that is I don't like my paintings 90% of the time. There I said it, I'm not always my biggest fan. To me, they are a complete mess until one magic (or should we say lucky)  pour brings it all together. Although exciting, the process can be a serious test of patience and my creative confidence. It's really easy for me to give up and decide to paint the canvas white again, but I've found that the pieces I'm the most confused about along the way turn into the ones I'm the most excited about in the end.

All in all, the end result is something I'm really proud of, even if I did have my doubts along the way.

Be sure to check out my show at Covet Consign in Minneapolis, Minnesota through February 2018.

To see full show lineup, check out Covet Consign Solo Show under the Projects Section.

In The Studio with 2nd Truth

Lately, I have been receiving a lot of questions about my process, and a few weeks ago I was lucky enough to have Colleen from 2nd Truth Photography stop by my tiny home studio and document some of it.  

When I first started playing with paint, it was a hot mess. Looking back at some of my first attempts, it's easy to cringe, but it does offer some important perspective of how far I have come. Having absolutely not formal training in visual arts, it has taken MANY hours of trial and error to develop a method that works for me.  The easiest way for me to describe it is plain messy, but there's a sense of spontaneity of not knowing where the paint will flow while still reacting accordingly if it needs a push or pull.

One of the hardest lessons for me to learn has been that not every piece is going to turn out well.  Learning to be ok with failure is uncomfortable, but learning to bounce back and not be afraid to experiment again has actually been very empowering.  If I could share with you all the failed pieces I have made in pursuit to finding a method that works, I would (but I'm pretty sure no one wants that).

All in all,  thanks goodness for a fresh coat of gesso and the ability to try again.

Balancing Act

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Biggest challenge? Finding a balance between studio and social life.

It wasn't until recently that I realized I have a tough time branching out when I get in a creative rhythm. Ever since I was a kid, I always felt more comfortable keeping quiet instead of spending time with others when I was excited about something. Seclusion has been my creative haven, and that's attributed to my ability to practice my skills and endeavors on a daily basis.

One thing I need more practice in? Being a friend.

It's easy to hide behind a phone or computer and get a daily dose of interaction from social media without the need to even talk to someone face to face. Don't get me wrong, Instagram and other platforms have been a game changer in my career, but I started to notice that I was skipping out on plans with friends just because I wanted to get back to painting. Normally that wouldn't be an issue, but completely replacing social time with work and social media have began to poke holes in my foundation.

In hopes of turning over a new leaf, I've been reaching out to people left and right. I've never been good at initiating friendships, but when I stopped to think about all the interesting and talented people out there, why not get to know them! Devoting at least a hour or two a week to meeting new people or catching up with friends has been a challenge, but no amount of social media interaction can replace those moments.

If you're reading this and want to meet up, reach out! I'm always looking for new people to hear their stories and be inspired by. Finding a balance between studio and social can be a challenge, but doesn't have to be impossible. 

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Grunt Work & Drop Offs

I have outdone myself and built 11 frames in less than 16 hours, and I am not quite sure I want to relive that experience again. Today I had two drop offs, one out in Excelsior at Golden Rule Collective for a photo shoot tomorrow, and one in South Minneapolis at Covet Design to house and sell some of my larger pieces. 

When I graduated college a year ago now, I was terrified of getting stuck in a routine and not creatively challenging myself.  Since music was no longer my forte (pun intended), I challenged myself to start painting and designing more regularly to give my creativity a workout. Never would I have imagined (yet always dreamed) that my work would start selling this quickly, and that this knack of mine could turn into some form of a career. 

Growing up, they always said to choose to pursue what you love and you'll never work a day again in your life. I chose music and subsequently stopped loving it, and everyday since that moment seemed like work. Now that I've shifted to painting and design, I feel like a kid again. Hopeful and giddy about work. Excited to "grow up".

Capping off a day of framing and delivering, I'm happy to say that even the grunt work is still fun.

Ripping Off the Bandaid

I've been meaning to get around to creating a website for quite some time, but there was always that pursuit of perfection that gave me the excuse for my procrastination. So here I am, ripping the bandaid off and sharing my work with all of you (and thank you so much if you're stopping by).

I'm going to keep this first entry short and sweet, but I'm finally taking the time to recognize the prettiness that surrounds us everyday, and the pursuit of translating it with my paint

 

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